Tuesday 30 March 2010

Hahaha......

Its so funny that I am now facing two computers and working two assignments at the same time. I have never thought of doing something like before. Hahaha......I am pretty proud of myself on this. I am super busy over these days...I can't really know how could I have been getting over all the stuffs...Anyway, after handing in these two assignments, then I can really have a bit of time to a rest and have fun with all my friends. Damn....I still have to go to the Lawyer's firm on tomorrow afternoon for the meeting....Shit....

祝福

我認為真正的愛是需要犧牲是沒錯的,我不會介意別人的看法,也不需要別人對我的認同,因為自己感覺到的是最真實的。

我相信愛人就不希望愛的人難受,如果你真心愛一個人,你是不會介意為他/她犧牲或是付出。如果難受是離開的原因這只是証明你不愛的吧,如果這是真的那我相信我的離開是沒錯的。其實令你難愛,的確不是我希望所看到的,如果我的離開會令你感覺舒服一點的話,我是不會介意離開的。我想應該這也是唯一的方法。

別人都不明白我為什麼要放棄,那是因為我真的沒什麼辦法。我明白一個人的感覺不好。我也明白你的寂寞難受,抱歉的是我不能在你付附近,所以希望你可以早一點放下我,找一個讓你感到快樂的人。雖然放棄不會是容易的,自己一個人的日子我早已習慣,對我來說一點也不會難受,愛一個人不是一定需要擁有,只要是愛的人覺得快樂就可以了。不需要太複雜。

我現在生活也很快樂,每天生活很忙,但也很愉快。知道你現在快樂地在地球的另一方生活,我也感到快樂和高興。和你一起相處的這些年來感覺很好,一起短短的3個月間,雖然有不少不愉快的事情發生和不和,不過我現在只記得起的也只是那些高興、快樂、溫馨的回憶。這樣對事情的看法是我在這些不愉快的日子裏所學到的人生觀。人生是應該比較簡單,腦子能記得的也只會是開心的回憶。無論怎樣也好,希望你也會過的快樂。
所以只要知道你是快樂的,我也是會為你的快樂而快樂。我從來都不希望或要求別人為我付出或回報什麼,因為我認為付出的人永遠比接受他人所付出的幸福和快樂。我不希望別人因為可憐而給我幫助,我也不希望會給別人帶來麻煩。

我不需要什麼,我也沒有什期望,沒有需要就不需要得到,沒有期望就沒有失望。可果從來就沒有擁有過就不會失去,就算失去也不會被感到失落的情緒所困。

本來我就是一個人的,一直以來也是,一個人的感覺也不令我感到難受。所以我也不需要因為害怕寂寞而找一個伴侶,我只相信愛才是讓二人走在一起的原因。我也相信愛。我只相信愛才是要我和一個人在一起的原因。我不怕寂寞,因為我一點也不寂寞,一點也不空虛。人生苦短是沒錯的,那如果人生不苦就不會感到日子短暫。我只知道日子總要過,快樂要過,不快樂也要過。只要覺得值得,有意義的便去實行,努力爭取, 就可以了。雖然是痛,也不會後悔,沒有遺憾,只要曾經愛的是真,真的是愛得深過。只要是知道自己的想法,相信的也是真的就足夠了。

我不會想太多,我也不想想太多,更不用去懂得想太多。我學會的不是去想,而是思考和實行。思考是用正確的態度去思想和考慮。只想好的,壞的不想也不知道,壞得事情也不用想。現在的人生比較簡單,美好。

我不會怕日子會怎麼困難,我只相信一天只會比一天好,我不需要努力去找幸福,因為我相信我已經很幸福了。我要謝謝上天一路以來給的考驗和困難,因為我一直都沒有被打敗,一切一切只會令我學會了更多的道理和使我變得更堅強。明天一定是會更好的。

最後希望你也能夠真正的過得快樂和充實。無論怎麼樣我們也會朋友,如果你有困難,我也希望可以幫你。我也希望父母的問題可以盡快完結,之後我就可以完成我的夢想,我也知道我一定很快能找到一個非常愛我的人。

Monday 29 March 2010

Accidentally found some songs that used to be in Ipod......

There are thousand of songs in your Ipod, some of those are them that you haven't even realized that they are in your Ipod. Its strange when you play the songs randomly, and suddenly a song remind you of somethings that you have never listened to, but it means somethings to you. Anyway....I enjoy listening to music....Since songs can always tell me somethings sometimes....


What You Believe In



Like I Never Loved You At All

Saturday 27 March 2010

有更深的體會...

最近喜歡上閱讀散文,明白了很多從前不明白的事。都我再回想起從澳洲回來以後,其實真的有了很大的變化。比起從前在澳洲,現在我的生活真的比較充實和有意義。雖然生活很忙,但總會清楚了解到自己的目標和理想,在大學所學到的知識比以往在澳洲大學所學到的實用許多。在香港的這段日子中,我也開始為自己將來在打算。

不過感覺很奇怪的是,雖然我真的在香港生活,但不知道為什麼,感覺很不像。可能是因為我所居住的地區吧,在我生活的地方有了很多不同國家的人,在工作上一直以來都要遇上許許多多不同地方的人。從跟他們聊天的都中不知不覺間我發現了很多有趣的事物。

加上我回來香港的之後,我發現從前的朋友和同學大部分的都出國讀書,英國、美國、瑞士、加拿大,等等...
所以令我開始想去其他地方學習,其實一直以來我最大希望是去英國學習的。不過可惜以往的環境都不容許,不過最近跟我母親談起將來的打算,原來母親也有意讓我將來去英國繼續升學。雖然現在還是不能確定未來的事情,但最少這也是我的其中一個可行的計劃。

但可果真的可以的話,我想我也先會把手頭上的學位先完成。

有時候人生真的奇妙,事情上的變化真的是不能估計,不過一切的事情都有它的影響和原因,我相信這就是命運吧!!誰會知道一切一切都好像是冥瞑之中、自有安排!

你是你的

可樂戒指

假如愛有天意.....

假如愛有天意,天意讓我們三年前相遇,
天意讓我們認識,天意讓我們彼此了解,天意讓我們成為好朋友,天意讓我們一起長大,天意讓我們一起生活,天意讓我們離別,天意讓我們彼此思念,天意讓我們再一次相遇,天意讓我們知道彼此相愛,天意讓我們從聚,天意讓我們再一次分離,天意讓我們彼此努力,天意讓我們彼此考驗,天意要我們彼此受傷,天意讓我們彼此不了解,天意讓我們彼此誤解,天意讓我們誤會加深,天意讓我們各自放棄,天意讓我們各自思考,天意要我們各自上了人生重要的一課,天意讓我們分手,天意讓我們名自得到了人生寶貴的體會,天意讓我們不再相愛,天意讓我們不再認知,天意讓我各自找尋彼此的真愛。

假如愛真的有天意,相信我一定要感謝天意讓我了解到許多許多,許多的道理....
感謝天意讓我了解到如何是被愛和如何去愛人,感謝天意讓我學會了許多許多......

假如愛有天意....
真的要感謝天意讓我們彼此都能盡早放下彼此。讓我們各自用心的愛各自的真愛,雖然天意還是要我們在找尋真愛的路上,可是天意既是如此又何必執著....如果必要執著過去,大概天意就是要告訴我們大家一個大家都不希望接受的現實......這就是.....一開始我們都不是彼此命運中的愛.....

Friday 26 March 2010

我是幸福的

Please let me in....

I really wanna get this job, this has been my dream since I was young. God please let me get this job!

On the other hand, I have to say thanks to the fate that it has let me realize more and learn more about what life should be. Be honest, I am not regret or upset, also I have to thank god who have let me to understand what is love. So I can know who is the one has been truly loving me over these days.

Sometimes in life you will find the one who you love, find the one who love you. Rearly, you will find the one you love and who love you at the same time.

I am glad that I find the one I love, unfortunately I still haven't found the one I truly love and who has also truly love me at the same time. However I am not upset or regret for anything, becuase I think it's lucky that I have realized it earlier, so I can start to find the one earlier, without wasting time. So sometimes giving up isn't a bad thing to do, however , holding the wrong one on hand is even worse.

Thanks god for giving me the wisdom, so I can able to see the truth at some important situation.

Tuesday 23 March 2010

幸福

人生在世,有時候就是跳脫不出這個框框--幸福

有個富翁,什麼都有,卻總悶悶不樂,老覺得還少了點什麼。一日,他經過市集,看見一個衣衫襤褸的乞丐,便很輕蔑的扔了一個小錢,並調侃說:『像你這樣一無所有的活著,還有什麼意思﹖』

『喔﹗大人,我雖然沒錢、沒勢,可是,我有一樣您沒有的寶貝。』

『哦﹗你有什麼寶貝﹖我可以出高價向你買,快說﹗快說﹗』

『只怕你買不起﹗』

『笑話!我不信天下有我買不起的東西。』

『這樣東西它不賣的,因為它不能賣,它是一種感覺--就是幸福。』

擁抱幸福其實很簡單,是我們把它物化,類型化了﹗

幸福只是一種內在心靈感覺,在某一剎那,心中的某一根隱密的弦,忽然被牽動,泛出圈圈甜美的滿足感,那便是幸福。

每個人的感情世界,都有如隱密的宮殿,年齡越增加,門戶的防備越森嚴,於是,要進入其中,要被撥動,便越不容易,於是,常常覺得不快樂,離幸福越來越遠,而當一個人覺得幸福離自己而去時,便會想藉著獲取更多的物質擁有來填補。

結果,常常是擁有的越多,越覺空虛,越不快樂。

在生活中,有太多微不足道的小事,在在地觸動著我們,只是被我們忽略掉了,我們總『以為』,追求幸福是件大事,一個大目標,一些大收獲,結果卻離幸福越來越遠。

獨自去看早場電影,在小攤吃碗陽春麵,再叫一盤臭豆腐,然後搭公車回家睡午覺,對我而言,是幸福。

帶狗狗去散步,看牠興奮地奔跑,銀灰色地捲毛在陽光下閃閃發亮,那麼健康,那麼美麗,心中充滿著說不出地愉悅,我知道,那也是一種幸福。

在公車上,讓位給一位長者,老太太一迭聲『謝謝』,叫我好生溫暖;想到自己尚能站立的雙腿,不覺有種幸福感浮了上來。

各位朋友,幸福不是生長在深山峻嶺上的仙草奇花,它就像存在你身邊那些不起眼的小花、小草一樣,只要你彎下身,只要你張開手臂,只要你敞開心,就能將它擁抱入懷,真的,就這麼簡單。

人生為何不可以從幽默的角度看哲理......

父子二人經過五星級飯店門口,看到一輛十分豪華的進口轎車。
兒子不屑地對他的父親說:「坐這種車的人,肚子裏一定沒有學問!」
父親則輕描淡寫地回答:「說這種話的人,口袋裏一定沒有錢!」

你對事情的看法,是不是也反映出你內心真正的態度?

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妻子正在廚房炒菜。
丈夫在她旁邊一直嘮叨不停:
「慢些。小心!火太大了。趕快把魚翻過來。快鏟起來,
油放太多了!把豆腐整平一下。哎唷,鍋子歪了!」
「請你住口!」妻子脫口而出,「我懂得怎樣炒菜。」
「你當然懂,太太,」丈夫平靜地答道:
「我只是要讓妳知道,我在開車時,妳在旁邊喋喋不休,我的感覺如何。」

學會體諒他人並不困難,只要你願意認真地站在對方的角度和立場看問題。

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晚飯後,母親和女兒一塊兒洗碗盤,父親和兒子在客廳看電視。
突然,廚房裏傳來 打破盤子的響聲,然後一片沉寂。
兒子望著他父親,說道:「一定是媽媽打破的。」
「你怎麼知道?」
「她沒有罵人。」

我們習慣以不同的標準來看人看己,以致往往是責人以嚴,待己以寬

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有兩個台灣觀光團到日本伊豆半島旅遊,路況很壞,到處都是坑洞。
其中一位導遊連聲抱歉,說路面簡直像麻子一樣。
而另一個導遊卻詩意盎然地對遊客說:
「諸位先生女士,我們現在走的這條道路,正是赫赫有名的伊豆迷人酒窩大道。」

雖是同樣的情況,然而不同的意念,就會產生不同的態度。思想是何等奇妙的事,如何去想,決定權在你。

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乞丐:「能不能給我一百塊錢?」
路人:「我只有八十塊錢。」
乞丐:「那你就欠我二十塊錢吧!」

有些人總以為是上蒼欠他的,老覺得老天爺給的不夠多、不夠好,貪婪之慾早已取代了感恩之心。

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在故宮博物院中,有一個太太不耐煩地對她先生說:
「我說你為甚麼走得這麼慢。原來你老是停下來看這些東西。」

有人只知道在人生的道路上狂奔,結果失去了觀看兩旁美麗花朵的機會。

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同樣是小學三年級的學生,在作文中說他們將來的志願是當小丑。
中國的老師斥之為:「胸無大志,孺子不可教也!」
外國的老師則會說:「願你把歡笑帶給全世界!」

身為長輩的我們,不但容易要求多於鼓勵,更狹窄的界定了成功的定義。

快樂的人計較少

看完這篇文章之後心情放鬆了不少,有工作煩惱時記得再看看這篇文章。

做到良好就好

原來快樂的人是因為計較的少。

寫的很不錯... 大家好好想一想...

自己所要追求的是什麼呢?

有一位同事美麗而又文靜,說話語速總是慢慢的,音量總是小小的,但很能說到人的心底裡去,你不知自己是什麼時候被她看穿的。

她的業績說不上驕人,但也無可挑剔;

她嫁了相愛的普通人,日子過得波瀾不驚;

她不要求孩子學這學那,雙休日一家三口就去遊玩;

她每天都要午睡,每天都做健美操, 生活很有規律;

她從不嫉妒榮譽加身的同事也從不鄙薄偶犯錯誤的同事,只對勢利小人冷眼旁觀,卻也不惱,她覺得他們不會有好的心態與好的結局。

她心明如鏡絕頂聰明,與周圍一些拚盡全力卻活得七上八下不盡如意的人相比,我總覺得她的人生本來還可以更為出彩,而她沒有去做。

有一個非常難得的機會我們兩兩相對,她說起她外婆的一句話奠定了她的人生,讀小學時她體質非常弱,任何體育活動都沒法參加,學習又非常爭勝好強,偶爾有一門功課得不到第一就會難過就會自責。

外婆說:「以你的條件,你不必追求優秀,但你可以做到良好。」

她很聽外婆的話,比較輕鬆地將每門功課都保持了良好,同時她的體質也恢復到了良好的狀態,高中畢業她給自己的定位是考上一所普通大學,壓力不重反而發揮良好,她輕鬆地考上了重點大學,畢業時她選擇了中等城市的專業對口單位,她只求離父母近些,可以相互照料。

她娓娓地講述著這些,就如她不急不躁地構築她的良好人生。

良好人生肯定不被小說家與劇作家看好,因為良好人生不能構成他們的創作素材,他們更感興趣的是--

事業有成而家庭破裂,

輝煌的陰影裡藏匿著墮落,

幸福來臨卻緊隨著死神。

有一項優秀就總有一項不及格。

生活何嘗不是同樣地乖戾,倘若某個人的某個單項特別地優秀,他人生的另一重要項目,缺憾往往也特別地大。

或者是,正因無可彌補的缺憾,才發憤地去追求優秀。

所以良好人生的境界實在已經至高。

當一個人的事業、愛情、品行、心境乃至體格都能達到良好時,誰說那人生不夠優秀 ?

米蘭昆德拉有一本書叫「生活在他方」,我對這五個字有很好的聯想,我們的生活總是在遠方,都在想:如果明天我有錢,我就可以…。

但是如果你現在賺少錢不快樂,就算你有再多的錢,我保證你也不會快樂。

如果你一個人的時候不會自得其樂,即使嫁了人,娶了老婆,別人跟你一起一樣不快樂。

如果現在不懂得享生活,未來也不會享受生活。

有人問什麼叫做自由?所謂的自由就是:

你想要拒絕一個人的約會,已經不需要任何理由,你有權力過自己要過的生活,有權力去自己要去的地方。

其實生活很簡單。

男人跟女人都很喜歡在自己的人生設一個deadline。

比如說:

我 25 歲一定要結婚,

26 歲一定生孩子,

30 歲時一定要一男一女,

31 歲的時候一定要有房子

所以很多決定就很草率。

如果剛開始你找的那個人就不對,往後再怎麼努力都不對。

有時候,我們常常會覺得婚結了,所有問題就沒了,那如果結了婚還有問題,就趕快把小孩生一生,其實你的問題在這個階段沒解決,在下個階段只會變大。

你對未來不用期待太多,期待太多…

老實說挫折感會很深。

不如看看你現在做什麼事情,會讓你覺得很自在,吸收到很多的東西,那個時候你才會覺得人生真的很充實。

另外~~

一個人如果太努力在活給別人看,就會痛苦得不得了。

今天如果你相信自己做得還不錯,不在乎別人怎麼看你的時候,你真的可以很自在。

好東西就要和好朋友分享,祝福你每天都幸福、快樂。

Monday 22 March 2010

It Can Only Get Better....



Another day

Just let the past goes....

As I thought it must be hard for me to letting go or forget the love. Since I thought I would never want to leave someone I love. However, I start to release something that I couldn't understand before.

I thought I would not want to leave him even though I could find a better one. Since we have been knowing each other for more than three years. There were so many good and bad memories over these years. As I thought I could never find anyone in my life likes him who could have shared all those memories with me.

However, one of my friends have just reminded me of a very true fact. In fact, the past is the the past, we can never change the past. Future is the only thing that we can work hard for to change. Therefore we shouldn't let the memories to trap us in the past. We can only get lost if we trap ourselves in past.

As I know there can be a big different in the future by changing any tiny bit of our present decision. I am not sure what will happen in the future, however, I just know that all I can do now that is to improve myself and get myself well prepared for the future. As I know the best is just yet to go. The better I can get prepared, the better I can have in the future.

The most important of all, no matter who will be my Mr Next, or can my Mr Next be my Mr Right, still I believe the next one must be a better one. So now I should just improve myself and get myself well prepared for the next coming one.

P.S. The next station, lucky~

Getting a target for myself can help me to work better for the future.....

After the trip to Macau, I have a bit of thought of everything. In fact, setting some short term goal for myself is really a good way to move on my life. Anyway, I think the biggest goal for myself of this year is quit smoking.... I hope I can do it, no I should I must do it and I have to do it....Haha.....HAHAHAHA....In fact, I can really find a lot of reasons and advantages of quit smoking....

Saturday 20 March 2010

Why?!

So many questions had been trapped in my mind for so long! However there are even more questions are coming along now, eventhough none of the old ones has been answered!!

The lesson of my life....

Over these days, I have been trying to stop loving someone, no matter how many times I have told myself that I would be fine. Still I truly understand one thing in my deep heart, that is I love him so much. So much so much, that I just want him to be happy. I am not sure that my way of loving you is right or wrong, but what I believe is that my first interests of all my decisions were just want you to be happy. Sometimes the results just don't really come up as what you wish.

I am not sure what I have done will bring the best for you, but I just don't want us to be struggling in our relationship anymore. Maybe giving up or letting going are the only way to make you feel better. Be honest, I have never felt anything bad about you to leave me and get a better one. Since I will be happy with whatever you are happy with. Maybe this is what I believe for what love can do for the others.

The way I love you is just like I am loving my family. Sometimes I just get really angry by how your actions had upset me, however at the end of the day, the anger just will have gone. Soon or later I will not be angry at all. So when you said how me and my mum were not taking your affords into account, this really upset me. Since you will never know how much I have scarifies for you when you have came to China and Hong Kong.

I didn't want to enlarge for that, since I know you have also scarifies something too. But when you told me that you thought I was appreciating what you have done for me, that's really upset me. Is true that I was angry at you sometimes by your actions, but then I have already get over it and accepted it. In order, to make myself feel better, what I could do was just typing all my feelings out on the blog. I didn't think this could be hurting you somehow, therefore I have just blocked the blog.

I have never intent to hurt you in anyway at all. As the first day you told me how I haven't done something to make you feel better, indeed I care about what you have told so much. Since that day on, we have been fighting so much about everything. Fighting with wasn't really fun at all for me, as you may never know how powerful of your words can be to me.

I just wish I haven't met at all. However, I still want to thanks destiny for bring us together for somehow a short period of time. At least I could have this chance to know what Love really mean to me, and I believe this is what life should have a goal.

No matter how much tears I have dropped, and no matter how much pain of this love could have bought me though. I just hope one day the tears will try, and pain will die, and the love will just gone.

After all, I am happy that now you can move on your life happily. So this is just what I really wish to know. Happy to know that you have already got your better one. And now all what I can is just " Wish you all the best".

Friday 19 March 2010

你比從前快樂

懂得珍惜的人是最幸福的....

其實有時候很多人都是身在福中不知福。

他們整天只會抱怨上天為什麼不能只有晴天,而沒有雨天。
之後他們又抱怨大地為什麼要有高低的分別,就是不能只有平地而沒有高山與峽谷嗎?

當人手中握着杯,口中喝着水的時候,就只會在抱怨着為什麼他們喝的不能是果汁而是水呢?
到了他們手中握着的是果汁瓶,口中喂着果汁的時候,他們又在抱怨着如果手中握着的是琉璃杯,能喝着一口葡萄酒是多麼賞心悅目的事呢....

但其實試問今天的葡萄酒又是怎樣得來的? 試問果汁又是從何而來呢? 那你認為我們手中握着和口中喝着的水又會是從何以來呢?當人能明白到這一切一切的因與果時候,他們才會知道自己當初所抱怨的一切一切,都只不過是因為自己的不了解而已。

擁有的時又只會為擁有的不足之處而終日怨天尤人,得到越多渴望的更多。難道失去的時候,才是真正令人最快樂的嗎? 因為至少他們再沒有什麼可叫他們抱怨了。什麼都沒有的時候又何來會有不足之處呢?

那些整天只懂得抱怨的人永遠也不會懂得什麼是真正的快樂。因為他們何時何地都只會為着要找出不足之處而煩惱,而忘記珍惜和欣賞。

而那些真正懂得欣賞,了解,珍惜的人才是最有福的。因為他們才能真正得到快樂和幸福。

最後就以四個字來總結吧..........飲水思源......

Thursday 18 March 2010

I don't Care......

Monique!!! You don't love anymore....remember.....you don't love him/.......you just want to do the right things....and the right thing is just let him go.....and just hope he will be happy...that's it.....nothing more than that....You just need to forget everything about him....he is fine...and he will be fine....you don't have to care about him....you don't have to care about how he is feeling right now......you don't have to care anything about him.....

you just have to let it go....and never let it to come back.....you need to move on......In fact, he doesn't love you, and he has never loved you as well......he just loved you because that's what he think he would be happier.....he didn't really love you,.....he just only loves himself.....but not you....he will never love you and would never love you too......

Everything is over....it is over.....as this is the truth, and this is not what you are telling to yourself as a way to hypnosis yourself......

Be strong, you are able to afford all the pain and pressure in stead.....all the things you have done are really the best for everyone else around you and everyone else you know......you don't have to be upset....because doing things to make the other be happy is what you want and you do to make yourself feel better.......

If what you have done it's really hurting him, so then he should have realized what he has done was hurting you as well.....you should have estimated what he would do that could only upset you more.....as you would know all these things could have happened......still you know that he will be fine so soon....and leaving him just make him feel better and it is really the best thing you do for him.....It is because he can soon find his better life with someone else....and he will be happier to be with someone else....he has already told you that he was really upset while he was in Hong Kong , and being with you was the hardest thing for him....so if you love him you should just let him go and find his better life.....I believe in what you have done is always the best for what you could choose to do.......

As now the most important thing for you to do is take care yourself, so that you can take care of your mum...then you can able to handle every hard situation in your family and on your life as well.....no matter how you would choose may not be the best way sometimes.....still I believe you have already done your best......Since I believe there would be no one else like you in this world who can have completed so many things over these years.....

Perhaps there are just some little rocks that blocked the way of your life, still I believe you will be able to kick or move all the rocks away and continue your way to your success.....Since all the difficulties are just making you to grow stronger and learn how to be more successful in the future......

Just have to believe in yourself, you will be fine.....and now you have to focus on your study and start to do your assignment...

Hope you will be happy....

As I don't care about how the others will think, comment or view my actions, still I will just do all the things that I think I should do. No matter how much you love me, but all your actions just hurting me so much.

Anyway....as I now you are finding hard to sleep in these days, so I just bought somethings and sent it to you. I hope this can help. I am not sure can it help or not but I think I should send you to make you feel better.

Maybe I am different from you, because the way of how you think of love is so different to the way of mine. I am not sure how you will think about me and my actions. I just believe to what I believe.

I don't mind how you have complained to the others about me, still I just believe in myself about my love. I am sorry that I could never feel your love to me, but I can feel how you love me because of yourself. That's not what I really wish to feel. However, you have made me feel in such way. Though I have to say thanks to you that how your actions have pushed me away from you, and this can make me truly understand what should love really mean for me. Sometimes love can make people to stay together, and sometimes love can also make people walk away from each another. I just believe this is reason why I have walked away from you.

In contradiction, I have never leave you behind even though I have walked away from you.And this really confused me sometimes....Even though I just want to giving up to love you, still I still care about how you are going...Anyway....I think as the time pass by I will be fine...

Sorry if you can never understand how my actions truly mean to you, however, I just believe in what I believe. Maybe sometimes there are somethings that you will never understand but somehow you will know it deep in your heart.

Wednesday 17 March 2010

Everything's Wrong

Monique

Calm down yourself and stop contacting him, because all his actions are just going to hurt you more. You have to stop letting the others to hurt you. If he loved you or loves you then he would never try his best to hurt you. So what is he trying to do it's just proving you that he doesnt love you. As he has never tried to understand everything. He is just living in his own world. He is just a selfish person, he doesn't worlth you to be upset!! He doesn't worlth your tears.

He loves himself but not you.

This was a place where we started and ended up.....

Maybe the postcards have just arrived at the wrong timing for both of us. Its so true that I don't want you to contact me since I wanted to forget you, because I thought that's the only way to make me feel better. More importantly, I wanted to make myself clear about my decision. So I decided to not to talk to you before I have confirmed my decision.

Now I am writing to you because I thought I have already let my feelings gone, and I have already move on my life. So I just hope you can move on yours as well.

Anyway, thanks for letting myself realized so many things over these days. I have learned so much from this unsuccessful relationship.

Be honest, I had been blaming you for so many things before. However, I realized that actually I didn't have to blame you. All the blames just prove me that we aren't and weren't meant for each other. Anyway.....whatever for that....since everything is over now.

Perhaps you are losing me as a girlfriend or partner, but I believe you can soon or you would have already found a better one. So after all, I will still be your friend.

So if you have got anything that you want me to help you, please don't hesitate to find me, since I can always be there to help with your problems.

In fact, you don't have to feel bad or anything about how we have ended up. Maybe this is the appropriate place for us to end up with our relationship, since this was where we had started.

Tuesday 16 March 2010

嫌棄

如果我們不再見

可惜不是你

失忆

其实很爱你

不痛

不是我不明白

還是好朋友



還是好朋友

作詞:林夕 作曲:黃韻玲

沒有人要內疚 沒需要原宥
在十字街頭 就相互保佑
那些體貼問候 那美麗鏡頭
沒必要一分開就變成了詛咒

相愛這一場 可能是為了
能擁有一個好朋友

還是好朋友 比愛人長久
不能牽的手按在心頭
在最寂寞的關頭 永遠在左右
事過情遷後 昇華眼淚後(昇華以後)
思念是最漫長的享受
那無痛的傷口 還帶著溫柔到白頭

親吻失去感受 火花燒到盡頭
沒激情有感情 有另一種邂逅

相愛這一場 可能是為了
能擁有一個好朋友

還是好朋友 比愛人長久
不能牽的手按在心頭
在最寂寞的關頭 永遠在左右
事過情遷後 昇華眼淚後(昇華以後)
思念是最漫長的享受
那無痛的傷口 還帶著溫柔 到白頭
是什麼叫你我 只配做一對 好朋友

Giving Up

Just Let It Go Lyrics...

Monday 15 March 2010

Love yourself

Thanks for telling me that you love yourself....it is because that's what I have been realized since these days long..I decided to private this blog because I don't want to do anything that will possibly hurt you or make you feel bad. So I have just blocked this blog from everyone. Start from now on this is the only place where I can freely express my feelings and let my feelings out. I don't mean to hide this blog from anyone, since I don't want to make anyone to feel bad or will have any bad impression of anyone.

Thank you for loving yourself. I hope that's can really make you feel better. Maybe you would have started to hate me because of how I have left you. However, you have never considered your actions to me. If you think I am a bad person whom I have left you in such way without any reasonable reason, then I just really want you to reconsider your actions once again.

Actually, I have never meant to do anything bad to harm anyone in my life. Indeed, the only way I would choose to stop making friend with a person, when they have made me to realize how they have used me for their own good.

Move on, you will be fine...



Since I have given myself a bit of rest, my brain has started to be more and more clear. I should take the time and chance to do and work on my study. Monique... As you have always known the fact that you should be putting your effort on your own future, forcus on your study and your work. Since these are the only things that you can hold on control. You should now wake up and work on your life. Don't let yourself be buried in the past.

Perhaps you can view the past as a dream, and once you have waken up you may still remember it, but you have to realize that the dream will not appear in your real life anymore. Also the dream will not stay in your mind for long, since it is not supposed to be a part of your memories. As if you pay the more energy to forget of something,it will just take the longer time for you to do so. Therefore, all you have to do is just keep telling youself that the past is the always the past, and it is just like a dream that will never come back on your real life in the future anymore. You don't have to forget it, just have to acept it as a dream will never come true ever again in your life.

So moving on your life is the only truth and the only thing you can do. Nothing can't be move on, and nothing can't be stopped, nothing can't be let go. As you know this wasn't the first time to experience something like that, as you know the power of hypnosis can really work out for this kind of similar situation before. Later you will be fine again, and just realize how luck it could be for you give up right now and move on for the future. So you will get your chance to meet the one who is really meant for you. More importatly, you will see that he will be happier and have a better life later on the future.

Things will get better once you can get over all these. This feelings won't last long, soon you will be fine. Just trust the fact that you can do it and so as your mind. Sleep well and live well, and everything will be fine.

Words I couldn't say...

What hurt the most...

Look what you've done...



Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

放棄是會比較快樂的.....

Sunday 14 March 2010

Thanks

Thanks for everyone of my friends, since they have tried to help me to walk out from the problems. I am really appriciated with all my friends. I believe I will also do the same things for them when they were in my situation.

Today I had a chat with a friend whom we haven't been contacted for awhile, because I have told him that I was not appriciated by my boyfriend if I had close contacts with the other male friends. Since then we didn't really contact to each others a lot, which we might be just chat once or twice a month.

When he asked me about how was my life going, I have told him how upset I was over these days. He asked me to share my problems with him. So he might give me some advices. After the chat, I just think his words was right and helpful for me.

As he said, eventhough I have rejected him before, still he would hope all the best for me, since he wants me to be happy. He said it must be hard and puzzled to have a long distance's relationship, and there must be so many on and off in between on the way of a relationship.

However, the most important thing is how to get through the problems. He asked me to get a hot drink, then read a book or watch tv on tonight so I won't think too much anymore. Then I just calm down myself and spend about an hour time to think about a couple of questions, 1st " think how much do I love this person, and how good is him", 2nd " think what were the problems of the situation ", 3re " what did he do that have been upsetting me?" , 4th " Can the problems be solved and how to solve the problems?", 5th " what can I do if the problems can't be solved?"

He told me that he would support my decision whatever it will be, as long as I am happy with and I will not feel regret. I really want to say thanks to him , since he always helps me or be there for me whenever I need some help. Eventhough I have never asked him for help, still he is always the one who come up when I am mostly needing some help. Also he have never made me feel uncomfortable with if I am seeking his help.

Thanks

Magical moment....

Start from now on I will just type all the happy and good things on this blog, since I don't want to make myself to think or remember of the unhappy and bad memories of my life. Therefore, I am not going to talk about something that will be upset for anyone else...

Friday 12 March 2010

你累了,,,,,我更加累了......

累的不只是你...我也累了....
如果你愛的那個人是去年六月之前的那個我...那為什麼你去年十一月的時候要跟我在一起,那為什麼你之前還要說你愛我,因為你一直所愛的都不是那個跟你在一起的人。因為去年六月之前我已經過去,我不是那個時候的我,同樣你也不是從前的那個你。那我可以說我現在就不愛你因為你已經變了嗎。難道這樣說真的能令自己想的舒服一點嗎?能令我的心也不痛嗎?你害怕起床的時候不知道會有什麼事發生,不是因為我會改變主意,是因為你一直都在被動的等待結果的來臨。你害怕結果不是你所期望的。而我痛是因為我怕我不能停止自己去愛一個錯的人。

說到尾的一切一切都只是給我更多的理由支持我去轉身走。在很久之前我經已失去說"我愛你"或"我要分手"的能力。也是這樣我只會現在說:[我真的心淡了,只能轉身走!愛不愛,分不分,見不見,我也沒所謂了]

因為我也受夠了傷,我要放棄愛人的權利,你讓我了解其實我應該去找一個愛護我,可以在我身邊疼愛我的人。

高興的是你現在過得開心就好了。因為這也是我希望看到或聽到的。

Wednesday 10 March 2010

Put away.....

Thanks for your efforts to help me letting go all the feelings. Thanks for giving me this chance to give up. Thanks for letting me to realize all the facts I should have realized before. Thanks for giving this chance to lose my feeling towards this love. I have felt a lot then before. I can feel my wound is really healing. I am not trying to forget anyway....I just can't remember anything feeling between us......Perhaps the chemistry reaction between us has been losing over these days.....Now I know that there isn't anything called forever in the world.....Since I have already been hurt enough, and I can never find any reason for myself to support my love towards you....If you would blame how I have changed since then, so please reconsider all your actions to me......I am not the one who have changed.....In fact, you are the one who has changed since you left.....you have found everything possible reason to blame everything on me.......

I believe you have never truly fall in love with anyone in your.....and I believe you have never realized how to love a person......I will never expect anything can happen between us.....since I have already seen you gone so far from me......I will not blame you for anything....as start from now on, I am not going to go further on this relationship any more......I am not even hoping our relationship or friendship can ever recover when time goes by.........I am just waiting for my sorrow to go....perhaps, during the time I will truly find the right one for me.....I am not sure whether I was the right one for you............however you have let me to realize that you are not the right one for me.......

Thank you so much......for letting me go.......thank you so much for letting me know you have never truly loved me............thank you so much for letting me know that you are just waiting a person to love you..........thank you so much for letting me realize how lucky am I when I have truly understood how to love a person......thank you so much for teaching me how to love someone unconditionally......thank you so much for giving this valuable lesson of my life......I am not going to find someone who can treat me better than you......I am just going to find someone I can love more than how much I have loved you...........thank you for disappointing me over these days......so I can realize how much I have loved you for.......no doubt I love you so much.......still I believe I can love someone else more than how much I have loved you............

As I am now leaving from your life, I just want to make my last wish for you that you can be happy ever after..........and now its time for me to put away all the things that can remind me of you...........and now I can truly have a nice sleep at night....

Never Had A Dream Come True

....

Set you free....

愛是永恆當所愛是您?!

什麼是放手呢?你不愛一個人是了,這不叫放手,這叫做放棄;
你移情別戀了,這也不叫放手,這叫做淘汰;
你覺得悶所以分手,最多只叫轉身走。

相反,愛一個人,但發現無論如何還是相處不來,唯有分開,這才叫做放手。
又或,愛一個人,但明白對方已經不愛自己了,唯有忍痛退出,也叫做放手。

[放手]一詞,往往包含了戚然與無奈。
我見過有人不停哀求對方回來,無所不用其極,
電話日打夜打、電郵日傳夜傳、巴結朋友、喊生喊死,
要知道,她一定很愛他,只是她還未明白,有時,

愛就是要學會放手。

Tuesday 9 March 2010

Can time heal?!

Hope time can heal everything!! What if time can never heal?! What if letting go this love is the only way to heal?! What if our passion of this love will be diluted when time goes by?!

Monday 8 March 2010

Can anyone who can give me some energy.....

Back to Monday again..... Ai... Today's meeting was just killing me. It seems like there were thousands of problems needed to be solved. Everything is really stressful for me. The problems of my parents' separation, the problems from the accounting reports, the problems of the taxation matters, the problems of my future study, the problems from the preparations for the trial.....etc....

At last but not least, I have two exams at the end of this month and 2 assignments which are due in two weeks time.

這就是愛嗎?

Sunday 7 March 2010

All in a sudden.....

Today I have realized something that I have never realized before. I just saw a name of a song on you tube which was really familiar to me, since I have always seen the same words written on one of my friend's messenger's name before. As I have never thought of these words as a name of a Chinese song. When I started to listen to this song, all in a sudden hundred of questions just pop up of my mind. I am not sure how this song was meant for him, but my sixth sense has told me something.....

In fact, I could notice all the little things that he had done for me. However, I just pretended in front of everyone that I couldn't.

Perhaps I would be feeling better, if he was the one I could have chosen. Then I wouldn't be so upset, and at least I could find a little bit of laughter from myself over these days...In fact, its too late to think about all the "perhaps questions", since I have already stacked at where I have been. Hahaha....

最後一次

一刀两断/陈慧琳

五月天 - 知足

Big Surprise....

This surprise just happened at the perfect moment for me. Since I have been depressing over these days. Is good that one of my best friends from primary school have just come back from England today. At least I can find someone to accomplish with and enjoy the time.....

Saturday 6 March 2010

Happy 4 months anniversary~

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Today is our 4 months anniversary. Time goes really fast, since we have already been together for four months. During these four months time we both had the good and bad times. I am not sure what will happen, I am not sure how long can this relationship still last, I am not sure how much love can we still hold in our heart, I am not sure whether we can still understand each other, I am not sure whether we are still meant for each other. Since I can't really understand the meaning of love anymore.

We have been knowing each other for more than 3 year. During these years, I had seen you being with a few girls. As you told me that you had been waiting for me over those years time. In fact, I was the one who had been single and always by your side over those years. I was single not because no one wanted me, it was because I couldn't find myself to fell in love with anyone else but you.

As you reminded me that you was always the one who took care of me when I needed someone. In fact, I had also been there to take care of you when you needed somewhere to stay, someone to take care of you and someone to talk.

I am not saying all these to remind you or enlarge all the little things that I have done for you, because I didn't mind if you have already forgotten all those. Since I am sorry that I am not beside you now, and I can't be there for you when you need someone to help, and I can't drive you or take care of you when you are drunk, and I can't take care of you when you need someone to take care of you, and I can't stand beside you when you are upset and need someone to talk to, and I have no where to let you stay when you need somewhere to stay, and I can't understand your feelings when you need someone to understand you, and I can't let you trust when you need someone to trust, and I can't let you feel better when you are feeling awkward...etc...

I am sorry for all those, therefore I thought it would be better if I could let you go and find the way which you could feel better. I don't care how bad would you think I was, I don't mind how bad you would be complaining to the other about me. As I will not mind whatever you
do that can make you feel better. I wouldn't mind if you think you would want to delete me from your memories, because of how I hurt you when I wanted to leave you.

I didn't wish to pull you back when you have already decided to let go, however, I was disappointed by how you would want to throw our friendship away when we couldn't have our relationship succeed . It was because I was just confused about how much could our friendship worth in the past when you could just throw it away when we couldn't have succeed in our relationship. I could understand how bad you could feel by the way how I tried to break our relationship. However, I could never understand how you could blame me for how I let you down
by not doing the things that you expected me to do. Since I could always try to understand you when you didn't really understand me. In fact, I just want to let you know that no matter what can happen, I will not give up the friendship that we used to have before, and I will never expect anything from our relationship if we were not meant for each other.

Anyway, I have to say to you and myself that " Happy 4 months anniversary", even I know we are not happy. However, this is all what I can say to make us feel better.

Friday 5 March 2010

The Best is yet to go....

No matter how good or bad was the past, and no matter how great will the future be. I have to learn how to be happy with everything I have got. I have to learn how to take my every minute count. I will be happy with everything I can get. I am not living only to make myself feel happy, I should be living to make everyone around me to be happy. I am not worrying about the future, because I believe that I will be happy for whatever I can get.

Since I believe the best is just yet to go, life is to make every minute count.

When time goes fast......things can change even faster.......

As I know time can go really fast, and things can change even faster. I could have already felt the changes of our relationship. In fact, our pride and disappointment can lead us to the other stage of this relationship. I believe the time can prove the fact.

Love should be working on both side, and I believe the fact of what goes around comes around. People should consider how their actions can lead to the things that they can get back. People can get hurt when they actually have already hurt somebody.

Since I have been disappointed again and again, and I have already believe in the idea of whatever will be, will be. I am now standing here asking myself, what am I doing? What have I done?

....maybe I would just let time to clear up the mind......

In fact, you thought I was wrong to say goodbye......however, I would rather you say I was wrong to think we can be together again.....since we are not happy at all.....I could have already expected and told myself and everyone the same thing that..whatever I could do wasn't going to make any different.....since we had already disconnected......

I can always understand that fact that.....I can get hurt by what I have done to hurt
you......However....you have never understood the facts that......you can get hurt by what you have done to disappoint the others.....why can't people realize something before its too late.....no matter if we did or didn't break up......same thing could happen still.....Since we have never been understanding to each other........Love isn't like that....I am sorry to start to realize the fact which has also been always disappointing me........

I wish I could feel the love from you.....and so you could feel mine.......

I have never expected anything to happen for me from you..............except I just expect whatever will be....also whatever will be won't hurt us too much.....because we have already got so hurt that nothing can be hurt more than that........

As I will never expect anything.......however, I hope time can heal everything and let us forget the pain of this love....and so maybe just let us forget the love...........

I will only be more and more calm for whatever will be in the future....and I believe this is just the same as the way you will be....and maybe this is the thing that we are similar to each other..... I believe you are just feeling as the same way as I am feeling right now......

Thursday 4 March 2010

Everything is nothing.....

Everything seems to be nothing to me at all. I am sick of everything, since I am not doing somethings meaningful for myself. I know what I am saying is just a bit nonsense, still I really want to do somethings interesting. I need some inspirations. Maybe that's why I have fallen in love with reading books lately. Since I can always find some new inspirations from reading different books.

Wednesday 3 March 2010

Rules of life

As if life is just a game, then maybe people are just the players of this game. The world is just like a place where the game take place. There are uncountable numbers of players start and finish from the game.

Assume there is no prize or compensation will be rewarded at the end of the game. No one can totally win or lose in this game. So what is the most interesting issue of this game is just how can people enjoy the process of the game.

As if we want wish to play well or enjoy the game, in fact the rules of the game will be helpful to the people who wish to take an easier way for playing this game. Without following the foundation rules of this game isn't going to make anyone to lose the game, however, players may find hard to play their games.

In a word, no matter what can happen in the game as long as we enjoy it. Maybe there are some people who are not happy with what they are playing, then I believe the book called "Rules of life" will be helpful for them to get back their enjoyable life.

Tuesday 2 March 2010

Healing

In fact,I am still feeling pain even the cut has already stopped bleeding. I just need some more time to heal my heart.....Since my heart was seriously hurt.....I hope this will not leave any scar....

Monday 1 March 2010

A lesson of life

In fact,there isn't really right or wrong in the world. However,I just believe that I would never want to hurt anyone or harm anyone in my life. I really need to say something sometimes to protect myself and avoid the others to misunderstand me. People sometimes think I am strange because they can't understand my reason, however this doesn't mean I am wrong. Perhaps, my fault is that I didn't let the others to understand my intention or reason of my actions.
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